to people;

#1
we have had sooo many great memories together and i really wish that we could go back to that in the near future. im sorry for what i have done in the past. i really am.

#2
you are one of my best friends and i dont think that i could of got through this year without you. you have pretty much been there for me when i needed you. thankyou sooooo very much.

#3
you are really pretty. like honestly. dont let others tell you otherwise.

i'm sorry.

:/
im just gonnna give up trying now.

i dont know what im actually doing anymore.
i think about you everyday. i miss you like mad. if only i had seen you before you left this world.
its hard for me to tell anyone whats actually going through my mind about anything and everything.
i dont know how to put it into words for anyone to actually understand.

1/11/10 you will never be forgotten xx

please, would you just like to leave me alone.
ive got to the point where im sick of you leavin snarky little comments and insulting me
fuck up.

i didnt know you.
but rest in peace.

sometimes, i kinda wish that i was invisible and i was everywhere so that if bitches were talking aboout me, id know.

i dont ask for much.
but i want to be acknowledged.

:(

i wont even get noticed.

lololololololololololololololololololololol.

bleh!

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind dont matter, and those who matter dont mind." - Dr Seuss

you suck.
i think you suck.

I HATE YOU.

god youre immature.

why does it always happen to me?
how i cant wait for when its your turn

honestly, stop being soooooo petty.

and the worst part is that i have no control.
if you were my friend. you wouldnt do it.
if you were a true friend, you'd stick up for me.
but what do i get, nothing.

why does it always happen to me?

i dont understand.

is it because im an easy target?

what?

why would i want to do anything for you when youre treating me the way you are?

you can honestly go away.

you were nice but you have turned into something i dont like.

do you're worst, do it.

go on, see how it turns out.

you are the most arrogant person that i know.
the little snarky remarks
you fuck me offf

what the fuck is your problem?
i have done nothing to you

maybe your colour blind.
the difference between ginga and blonde are two FUCKING different colours!!

youre an arrogant piece of shit.

:D youre amazing.

ball!
amazing,

:) you get whats coming to you.

i dont care anymore.
i voice my opinion and i dont care if you disagree.
you talk about people that mean something to me.
im going to tell them.

sure i can be bitchy and probably backstabbing, maybe i talk about you behind your back,
but who doesnt.
thats life.
honestly. we are all as bad as each other, but to you.
you think your perfect, gods gift, but really. youre just like the rest of us.

i hate you.

you dont know how much you actually irritate me.

i want to have a rave!

argh, i just dont know anymore.

im excited to not be at school for a couple of days this week, i just need to get away.

ive told you most things in which is going on in my life.
i really appreciate getting it off my chest.
im pretty sure that im just putting all my problems onto you.
for which i am sorry for.

im sorry for not being happier, but at this time, i am who i am.

im not okay.
i know you think its a joke, but i dont.
it hurts.

you get whats coming to you. :)

Day 3 - Your parents

my parents are amazing, they support me in almost everything i do, and i love them for it. we dont get along sometimes but thats just life, you have disagreements. but i love you both.


Day 4 - Your sibling (or closest relative)

i used to hate you with a passion, but since you have been away you have been nicer and i love that. you have turned into a better person and thats good. i love you.

thankyou, teesha and krystal for caring.
you dont know how much that means.

thanks for listening. :)

Day 2 - Your crush

lets just pass on this one.

Day 1 - Your best friend

well, this is gonna be hard. i have 3. to you, i have known you for nine beautiful years and your amazing, you make me laugh and we have soooo many memories together which i will treasure forever, but since we have gone to college, we have kinda gone our different ways, even at your birthday, i felt like i could crawl up in a ball in the corner and you not even notice.

to number 2, i really value your friendship, im not even joking. we have had our past fights and bitchiness, but i think that you are an amazing friend. im sorry for all the things in the past. i love you. lately, i think that we have kinda become closer and ive really liked that, since forever you have been there for me, and honestly, i cant thank you enough. you are such a nice and caring person.

to number 3, you know what. you do actually annoy the living hell outta me, but you know what, i wouldnt have it any other way, but sometimes you need to draw the line between niceness and pure assness. you make me laugh, we have had soooo many memories together, both bad and good, but i still love you.

Everyone else is, so why not..

The 30 Day Letter Challenge;
Day 1 - Your Best Friend
Day 2 -Your Crush
Day 3 - Your parents
Day 4 - Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 -Your dreams
Day 6 - A stranger
Day 7 -Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 - Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 - Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 - Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to
Day 11 - A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 - The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 - Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 - Someone you've drifted away from
Day 15 - The person you miss the most
Day 16 - Someone that's not in your state/country
Day 17 - Someone from your childhood
Day 18 - The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 - Someone that pesters your mind, good or bad
Day 20 -The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 - Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 - Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 - A person that caused you to change
Day 24 - The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 - The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 - The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 - The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 -Someone that changed your life
Day 29 - The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 - Your reflection in the mirror

its days like today that i wish i could forget.
but now that its happened,
my opinion of you changes.

sometimes, i wish that things could of turned out differently.
sometimes, i wish i didnt have to be so self-concious around you.
sometimes, i wish that you would actually care for once.

but, hey, they wont and never will come true.

im sorry.
i never knew you felt that way.
its just hard sometimes.

its all just getting tooo much, i think im about ready to have a meltdown.
i dont appreciate being called things behind my back.
i dont like it when you are deliberately mean to me.

you know when im upset, i go quiet.
but, heres the thing that hurts the most,
you dont even ask if im okay.
and i hate you for that.

you are one of my best friends.
i can tell you anything, although it wont be safe for long.
you make me laugh soooo much.

your such a bitch ass.

are you fucking kidding me!
one thing is done,
then it all goes out of hand
I DONT LIKE HIM

you dont know how caniving and bitchy you really are!

i still really like talking to you.

your an amazing friend, and i don't know what id do without you.
im sorry for anything that i have done in the past.

you get to know who your real friends are.

you can honestly just go away! im sick of you.

oh man. you annoy me soooooooo much that it isnt funny anymore

im really looking forward to this weekend, working a 12hr shift saturday and 6hrs sunday. OMG
dad gets home sunday tho, which will be good, i want my jellybeans,

JESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSUS

im thoroughly enjoying school today.
chemistry was amusing, luke edwards, you do weird things to your face!
kathryn, calling me a retard for delaying going to the toilet.
katy, well shes editing a pic taken a while back infront of DREAMGIRLS. OMG!
olly was wearing his WHOPPER SOCKS, but matt wasnt there to enjoy that moment once again.

i have just releaved my bladder.

your a loser!

what the heck is going on bitches.

JOKES

out of all the people that i could think about,
you were the only one worth thinking about.

i had a dream, and of all the people that could be in it,
YOU just had to be.

just to put it out there, if you dont want to hug me on hug a ginga day,

give me fanta, yeah?

thats how i used to feel.

and that is just the way it is.
deal with it.

you have made my day.

"i dont want the world to see me,
cause i dont think that they will understand,
when everything is made to be broken,
i just want you to know who i am."

"-Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars..
I could really use a wish right now.."
- B.O.B ft Hayley Williams

you know what..
im sick of you and your shit.

you guys are AMAZING.
i don't know what i'd do without you's.

you assumed that I have gone around
spreading stuff about you.

i mean come on, do you really think that
id go that low?

i hate this soo much.
i know that this is your life,
and that i have no opinion on the matter,
but your my friend and
i care about you.

so i have a friend, who i think is amazing. im happy that he has finally found happiness and that the person who makes him happy is a nice person. i wish i had that back

:/

i dont understand what i have done. you keep shutting me out when all i am trying to do is be a good friend. you are one of my closest friends and i know people at the moment are frustrating you but theres no need for you to take it out on me. i care for you, i just want you to see that.

i am not quite sure what to write.

i cant believe who you have turned out to be, i thought you were different, but you never changed.